I spent 3 years stuck in my bedroom. Seeking within while the world went on.
A few months ago I began "awakening" and felt utterly surrounded by love while I grew.

3 days ago, the silence came and I have never felt more alone. I go within now, even in meditation and it feels as though I have been forgotten entirely.

I feel more lost today than I did during the 3 years of darkness.

I am trying harder than I ever have, but every answer lead to a bigger question before finally leading to silence.

35 years of perceived suffering to learn every hard lessons I needed to. Then I got a few months of Love and bliss, only for it to be taken.

I will continue searching and seeking within, as I always have. Praying to finally recieve a concrete answer in an illusionary world.